Start where you are
“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” — Arthur Ashe
Am I enough, can I do it, do I have the skill for it, do I have the time for it, or do I have the tools for it, maybe I am lacking something others have. umm maybe I am just not cut out for it and millions of other thoughts use to rush into my mind, I hesitated so much about everything, I wanted more time, or let me say it this way I wanted an excuse for myself, I procrastinated a lot of stuff in my life just because I thought I wasn't ready for the adventure yet, I kept waiting for something to change and it never did, I kept waiting for a hero to arrive and he never did.
Fear kept me in check for so long in my life, fear of failure and fear of judgment from others I kept telling myself maybe it is better if I hide in a cottage maybe if no one ever found me nobody will judge me nor will I fail at anything but I was wrong in so many ways.
I learned in order to do something I had to unhide myself so many times, I had to speak up and stop living for others because a life lived for others wasn't for me because I wanted to be seen as me and I wanted to see myself in my own eyes and if others aren't part of “we” I would not worry about them cause they will always be others and so for the first time in my life I had the courage to expose myself to the world.
also what I am slowly learning is that you design your life, you write your own story you make your own painting and if you do not, it will be easier for others to take that brush and shape it for you,
and I am here to tell you that there are millions of people around the world who made something out of themself without having nothing, all they knew was that they belonged somewhere in this world, they knew that not having certain things wouldn't stop them paint their own masterpiece nor will fear so they only focused on what they were able to do.
But how do you get to where you want, just with one word you “start”, you don't complain about how life was unfair to you and how everything bad keeps happening to you, you don't think about the maybes like “maybe if I was in a different place, maybe if I was born with a silver spoon” NO, you “start” you don't think so much about the obstacles in the way, you think about the opportunities in the way and when you realize what you have and where you are is more than enough that's when things start happening, when the universe conspires with you because you had the courage to leap.
and let's talk about courage a bit, courage isn't the lack of fear, fear is a normal reaction, fear is just a feeling everyone has, it is your body's mechanism to protect you but what isn't normal is you sitting there simply giving up and surrendering. I know this girl who every time she decides to do something crazy for the first time, you could see she is scared as hell, as her body will always and every time quiver so much but she will always say this “the only thing that will stop me is me not some quivering”, and she will smile so brightly while her hands tremble and say I ain't gonna die from this.
and finally, just a word on Arthur Ashe you remember the guy who said the quote we started with 😶 yeah him😏 :
Arthur Ashe was the first black tennis player in the USA Davis team cup he accomplished a lot despite growing up in extremely racially tense times, after his career as a tennis player ended, he didn't give up and sat somewhere complaining about how bad his life is, no he took his experience and wrote for major news outlets, wrote a book, and threw himself into civil rights endeavor.
Hence, the thing is, you start something even if it isn't beautiful, even if you are not good at it, you start it, you work your ass off, you do your best, and surrender the rest.
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